have you ever caught a bug?

only to open your hands and see nothing there?
that's what you feel like sometimes
trying to hold onto something invisible
almost like a shadow at noon
but you feel more like midnight
loving you feels like waking up
those two seconds where my dreams feel real
and yesterday ceases to exist
but then that second is over
and you're still not next to me
there's a cave in my chest where you once resided
you lit the fire, you felt warm
now it's just a cave
cold
and longing for the feeling of life